New Year's Eve and it's hard to believe
another zodiac has gone around.

While you drank yourself high on hoping
and watched the ceiling spin from the ground.

Counting down from ten it's time
to make your annual prayer.

Secret santa in the sky
when will I get my share?

Then you tell yourself
what you want to hear.

Cause you have to believe.

This will be my year.

This will be my year...Semisonic


Go Ahead Punk: E-Mail Little Squaw @ squawpunch@hotmail.com

AIM: gimletgurl7 (Remember when she used to be here?)

Thursday, May 20, 2004

So I posted this earlier and then I realized that if you don't know me that the emails below may make me sound really awful. But I just want to go on the record as saying that I am not awful. Nor am I cruel. Nor am I unfair to the people I know or work with. I said at the end of last year that I was going to stop allowing my expections of others to hurt and disappoint me. Which wasn't very realistic because eventually everyone disappoints me somehow, most importantly me, myself and I. Because I am the hardest on myself. But when you read the emails below just remember that I most often hurt myself in my effort to help others. And the girl who wrote me the email has lied to my face and not taken responsiblity for her actions and has blamed others for her mistakes and when I ask her or beg of her to express her concerns or problems she clams right up and sits there with her arms crossed and looks like a wooden Indian. I am not cruel. The truth sad happy or otherwise is that I can only be me. The current version of me is a reflection of my past experiences and present choices. The hardest choice that I make each day is to care about people who are careless. But if you're going to screw with me or mine you're going to get better than you gave, in the most polite way of course. Tit for tat.

Okay, this is what I get to deal with tomorrow. Isn't it enviable? Below is correspondence from my coordinator to me and my response to her.

If I were to give anyone any advice I would say, "Don't write emails like this." If you are trying to track something for HR you need to have a conversation FIRST and then send an email recap to the person for your records. UGH.

Secondly...my right breast was touched by an Asian lady who I didn't know today. It was a mere tap when I was attempting to cross the street but sheeeesh! And when I was crossing Broadway with two of my co-workers I got in a faux argument with one of them and she responded, "Oh yeah, I can match you tit for tat." and said, "Umm, actually if it came down to tit for tat, I'd win." Baddum dum. Sorry. It's only the second time in three weeks that I've left the building during the day. We were all feeling rather saucy.

My Gilly is still on his way home. Damn, damn, damn that server room to hell. How happy I am that he's finally escaped the clutches of that evil air conditioned room.

So anyway...enjoy...or something like it.

-----Original Message-----
From:
Sent: Thursday, May 20, 2004 12:19 PM
To: Subject: Time Off

***,
When I get back in tommorow can we talk about time off and how we'll
figure it our going forward? I sensed that you were frustrated with me for
having to be out today. I understand that there are a lot of things that we
need to get done and that we are constantly busy, but I did not find out
about my delivery change until Monday and when I did I let you know
immediatley and asked that if there was a problem to let me know. When I
found out my delivery range, again I let you know immediately and asked if
it would be a problem and I didn't hear that it was until I stopped by your
office. Had you mentioned it being a problem on Tuesday, I would tried to
work something out with the company so that my next delivery option would
not have been three weeks away. I am giving 110% of myself everyday and have
had to work a lot of overtime to keep up, as you have. There are things I
need to care of like doctor's appointments and deliveries that I have little
control over. I try my best to do them during non-working hours, but there
are some instances when I have to take a day off or come in late/leave
early. I feel that I more than make up for it with the extra hours I'm in
the office. Yesterday I felt that you thought I that I was disregarding my
repsonibilities in the office when I am not. I know we are both under a lot
if stress, and this is why I'd like to addresss this so it doesn't cause
anymore undue stress for either of us in the future. Let me know when you're
free to discuss.
*****


-----Original Message-----
From: ***
Sent: Thursday, May 20, 2004 2:11 PM
To: *****
Subject: RE: Time Off


Thanks for the follow up.

I have been and will remain to be very verbal with INSERT SVP and the **** Team about how you and ******* have gone above and beyond in your efforts to assure our team continues to be a success.

My concern focuses more on the larger picture in terms of accomplishing the team's goals given the timelines that we are working with. As INSERT SVP emphasized yesterday we each need to take the lead on making tactical decisions and managing our time and schedules both in and out of the office.

My primary interest is that all of us feel empowered and prepared to get everything we need to get done in the timeframe we are working in.

In terms of time off everyone on the team needs to manage their time and responsibilities appropriately to assure that when they are out of the office the people who are covering for them are completely prepared to address any issue that arises. In my case, that means giving me in writing the status everything in motion. This assures that I am able to take the appropriate measure to keep us on track.

I am sorry if you felt that I was frustrated with you. I must assure you that if I was it would be my highest priority to discuss my concern with you directly and immediately as I have consistently done in the past.

We can certainly discuss this further if you'd like tomorrow.

***
posted by JustKeepMum on 5:43 PM