New Year's Eve and it's hard to believe
another zodiac has gone around.

While you drank yourself high on hoping
and watched the ceiling spin from the ground.

Counting down from ten it's time
to make your annual prayer.

Secret santa in the sky
when will I get my share?

Then you tell yourself
what you want to hear.

Cause you have to believe.

This will be my year.

This will be my year...Semisonic


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Sunday, February 22, 2004

Okay, I have a whole long dinner guest story to type here but I am going to take a moment to reflect on blogs and the people who write them.

I have one and the fact that I have one makes me a bit concerned about myself. I've been reading the random blogs that pop up on the blogger front page and let me tell you, a lot of those people are insanely unhappy and depressed. And they use impressively large words. Larger words than I have time to type.

But back to depressed. I feel like there should be a panic button for blogs that make you scared for the person. Or maybe I am too sympathetic? I know that sometimes just being depressed is as fulfilling as being happy. We like to pander to our meloncolly. I know. I've done a lot of pandering in my time. Just like a million cheesy songs have said before, "Sometimes feeling bad just feels sooooo good."

A lot of them are obsessed with Anime which is about as far from reality as you can get (if you don't count the body dismorphia perpetuated by modern media.)

Speaking of dismorphia...I'd love to get rid of my glasses. But I also love the novelty of having such a prominate accessory on my face of all places. Plus the pay off of getting compliments on the coolness of your frames is just way too pleasant...but I'd love to have the chance to see without glasses since contacts are so annoyingly painful/dry for me. I'd love to be able to shave my legs and get it right without having to bend nose to ankle. But there is one reason I wouldn't want to give up the plastic crutch on the bridge of my nose.

Because in the morning when I get up and in the evening right before I go to sleep, I look in the mirror without my specs on and I am beautiful. Okay, maybe beautiful is too strong of word to describe it but I am at least hellah cute. Myopia can sometimes be a girl's best friend. And then then the glasses drop into place, clarity returns and I am back to plain old me.

People are using a lot of orange on their blogs.

Gap says that green is the new pink.

And me? I use way too many elipses, and abuse the words anyway, so and which. I have a college education. Some might argue that I am bright. And yet I just read a blog written by someone born in 1989 and it made me feel like a dunce.

I just read another blog and got suprisingly angry that they had attributed the song "Torn" to Natalie Imbruglia. The song is original to EDNASWAP formerly of Island Records...the CD had a small ball bearing rolling around in the spine of the jewel case. The original version will tear your heart apart and make you want to lay down on the floor and cry. I know it's one of the songs I listen to when I am feeling depressed and it will totally make it onto my saddest songs ever comp when I finally get around to making it for me and Heather P.

You know what the best thing about all those blogs are? Nobody's reading most of them. You can tell by their traffic trackers, etc..So it makes me feel better about my small yet fantastically loyal and wonderfully intelligent audience of four. Five if you count me. Plus, I am the youngest of the group and none of us even come close to touching a birthdate from the 80's.

I just took some sort of personality test which told me what kind of "blogger" I am. Kind of fits this rant of mine so I'll insert it in here.

As a weblogger, your spirit of making others feel good will make people reciprocate and you will feel loved. Because you have a detail oriented spirit, you will be more likely to post frequently. You appreciate validation - espcially when someone agrees with you on something you say. Because of your sensativity, you must be careful not to be hurt when other webloggers are having contraversies - you want everyone to be happy.

Pretty damn accurate but I'm not exactly a closed book now am I? Now if you only knew what I kept in my medicine cabinet.

Feel free to tell me how it pans out for you should you take the test at the link below. I showed you mine now you show me yours.

You can find out by: CLICKING HERE

The Husband and I are going to the range tomorrow/today/after we sleep!

posted by JustKeepMum on 1:48 AM