New Year's Eve and it's hard to believe
another zodiac has gone around.

While you drank yourself high on hoping
and watched the ceiling spin from the ground.

Counting down from ten it's time
to make your annual prayer.

Secret santa in the sky
when will I get my share?

Then you tell yourself
what you want to hear.

Cause you have to believe.

This will be my year.

This will be my year...Semisonic


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Wednesday, January 07, 2004

This one goes out to Gil who gets upset that I don't post during the day! It's the reason that I keep things in reserve.

Okay, I just want to say that Britney Spears really ticked me off with this wedding thing. It's alright for her to run around and act stupid. It's okay for her to smoke and drink and wear really tacky clothes. What isn't alright is her making a mockery out of marriage. I find it very insulting as 1. a child of divorce and 2. a happily (not with out a lot of effort and compromise) married woman.

I've made this rant before when that show "Married by America" or whatever it was called was on Fox. I openly said how it offended me once during a conversation at work. One of the people who happens to be a lesbian said to me, "Why because you worked so hard to get a husband?" which offended me even more. I didn't work to get a husband. I worked to make myself the kind of person who would feel comfortable with a husband. The kind of person who was able to let their guard down and not be so freakin' independent to a fault. Which is the kind of person that I once was. I didn't work to get a husband because trust me I could have gotten a "husband" through downright trickery and sex. What I worked to do was find someone who I respected and admired and who made me want to be an even better person. Someone who made me want to believe that I was the kind of person that they said I was which in retrospect was a whole lot different than what I would have told you was the case. I was downright lucky. I was smart enough to see through all the "what ifs" and open my heart to the "right now". And sometimes if you're lucky "right now" erases all the "what ifs" and becomes "perfection in process" because nothing's ever perfect and there are always bumps and road blocks.

Britney Spears and Carrie Bradshaw every other character like them should be ashamed. Because marriage is not a "joke" and there are enough people with broken hearts and marriages that didn't work out who can tell you that it's enough to break you in two when you can't fix one. The kind of people who should also be proud that they were brave enough to take the chance to throw themselves feet first into the pot and strong enough not to linger in a horrible situation and become horrible themselves.

It's a shame he was so agreeable. I have to guess/home that he got at least a one roll in the hay and a million dollars out of the deal.
posted by JustKeepMum on 10:59 AM